Figuring things out

I've been feeling so down lately and I don't know why.  I was trying to explain all this to my husband but I didn't do a very good job.  I realize I don't have any motivation ... I feel lost.  I feel like I don't belong here and I don't know where I'm going.  My life has always been on "a path"  and had direction, never aimless wandering.  New territory for me.  When he asked what I want I said I didn't know anymore.  I said I don't know what I'm doing so I'm just doing what I did the day before.  Those words released a torrent of tears.

Dream Journal

Inspiring an Old Friend

Dreamt of an old friend last night ... A from NY.  I saw her at some function and she was really sad.  She didn't say anything, somehow I just knew.  She wasn't talking much and that made me nervous so, as is my way when I am nervous, I talked too much.  The more I talked the more I realized that she felt lost and that she was unhappy with where she was in her life.  Finally, I suggested that she write a book with all that she has researched and all that she knows ... her eyes lit up.  I could tell that she felt inspired and that idea appealed to her. 

As I walked away, I realized I felt the same way.  Lost.  I had just inspired her to come out of her downward spiral ... why couldn't I do this for myself?