Figuring things out

I've been feeling so down lately and I don't know why.  I was trying to explain all this to my husband but I didn't do a very good job.  I realize I don't have any motivation ... I feel lost.  I feel like I don't belong here and I don't know where I'm going.  My life has always been on "a path"  and had direction, never aimless wandering.  New territory for me.  When he asked what I want I said I didn't know anymore.  I said I don't know what I'm doing so I'm just doing what I did the day before.  Those words released a torrent of tears.